As time wines down to the day of redemption, my mind begins to wonder. Will any body like the new me, hopefully sparkz will flame with girls that Im pursuing. Maybe I need a routine check to put my priorities on the path Im walkin, but Im scared that my closet skeletons comin back for more torture days.
When I look at my troubled past every night when my eyes take a rest, lil drops of water flow down cheeks cuz of the nightmares of my youth. So I try to replace them with the memories that will last longer then the night, even then I still shed a tear when failure remains In my brain.
This routine Is getting way to old for me to deal with any more. How can I try to resolve this mystery that seems to go on forever. I've thought & tried of every solution possible, but the result never cahnges for the better. What's left for me to xplore that would make me get butterflies for the 1st time In my 19 years of living. Xpecting the worst but hoping 2 get my head out of the gutter, there's a very slight chance that Im goin to end this ride before It's 2 late. When this whirlwind Is over & done with I can open my eyes to thank the Heavenly father that the storm Is over & I can finally relax In a long time thats over due.