you looked at me
like it was just a lost
NO
i fell,got up
brushed the dirt off
shirt torn
face a few scratches
body a little battered
but here i stand
eyes stained with pain
why did i ever
want to be part of them
why did i ever indulge with her
why was it easier for me to find happiness
in a bottle of liqour
drunk staring at blurred pictures
toasted my liver
don`t even know how long i have left
alter calls at church
knowing i need help
but what i go and do?
look to the left
hoping nobody comes up next
man how much longer does this service have left
why was i in such a hurry to leave life
and chase death
righteous,yeah right
it all fell on deaf ears
false sense of love with peers
cracking jokes at what we call queers
amped by the laughter and cheers
braggin i`ve been like this for years
i`m not going to ever change
gun pointed in my face for a couple of dollars and change
you would think seeing my life flash
would make me think twice
re-evaluate life and change
Nope
now i`m the one
with something that breaks the silence
and leaves you with a stiff frame
intelligent with no brain
elders looking at me like
isnt that the son of whats his name?
hmm mmm darn shame
25 looking at my friends
like wow house cars stable job
happy family in picture frames
looking at my hands
what have i gained
disobedience my walk
Ignorance my name
i took pride
in what you call pain
your hurt
my laughing outburst
so yeah
now its me with the pain
the being laughed at
the hurt
on my knee`s
covered in dirt
i dare not get up
til God shakes this earth
and loosesn satans hands
i`ve fallen but got up
a phoenixed raised
i`m UNBROKEN