I had felt defeated so long
I accepted it
And with that acceptance
I accepted all that needed to be denied
The failing
The not taking care of my responsibilities
Being ignorant of the consequences and how they affected me and others
To let others take the blame for my mistakes not seeking wisdom through those
Mistakes
But trying to let others suffer the consequences for my actions

The procrastination
The putting off till tomorrow
When tomorrow is a gamble
Because tomorrow is not promised

The man who put off till tomorrow today died incompetent because he never
Finished what he started today blindly thinking he had tomorrow
When today was his last day

The mediocrity
The letting barely be good enough
Hindering the unlocking of my true potential
Keeping myself ignorant of what I’ m truly capable of !

The negativity
The allowing of others
Ridicule, bad habits, and falsehoods
In my surroundings
The self-pity bringing upon self-loathing bringing upon a deep depression within
Me

At this time I shut my eyes from the truth
Purposely making myself ignorant of my problems because I felt convenience in
Not knowing
With not knowing the need for change is not known
Yet the need is still there

But as life goes on people grow
As I did
And through growth the acceptance of that bitter taste of defeat slowly began
Fading away with a sweet taste being victorious

I end this to be continued
Because I have yet to do all that is needed to be done
And this poem shall go on till it is all done
But since no more has been done I can go no further
Just reminisce on my yesterdays so they won’t happen today....

By: Terrence T. Carter