Dizzing effects after
Having pressed buttons that
Were dormant for so long

She set the bar
Letting me know
Just how far to let
Them in

She taught me about
My selfish ways
The intricate part it would play
In the post – US… Days

The things she used to say
Haunts me to this day
As I relapse during different
Parts of the day
Questioning where we would be
If only I chose to stay…

Didn’t truly understand
The depth of what we shared
Until after the child that we reared
Shit got real
Real quick
Chris really cared

I miss you on days when
Love is illusive
I’m backed in a corner like,
Nobody gives a shit
Or
I’m stacking 21 questions
Without answers
And can’t quite center myself

When lies pile to the height of the heavens
Hands shaking from constantly stressing
Whether situations will ever equal
Or amount to what we built

You understood me

I miss that the most…
Explaining
Away things
That seemingly are composed from only my reasoning…LOL

Yeah I really miss that..

Damn… I wonder what you’re doing right now.