YEA....FANTASY....SEEMS SO FUCKING GOOD RIGHT NOW......WISH I WAS JUST DREAMING.....

suicide note
im making and leaving
as im crying
all of these tears im grieving
my heart's been deceived
now all im doing is weeping
reap what you sow
guess i ain't been knitting
all of my sacrifices
blown away, mind set
got me feeling so lonely
walking around in this real body
but i feel so phony
cause this ain't me
not me moaning and groaning
agonizing pain
its deeply showing
i know it looks pathetic
but i ain't so energetic
so i put my last strength
into this write, poetic
ink drying up
no blood left to write with
wounded, like i've been beating
with a night stick
blunt object, harshly oppressed, bitched
whats next man, like peter pan
i try to think happy thoughts
but i really can't man
no ideas left to imagine
no flucuation, capacity inflation
rope ready for my final presentation
i bet there are some
who welcome my death, congratulations
this is like candy to them, infactuation
meditation, sitting quietly waiting
standing there
as i say my final words
my final statement
nothing for them haters to be hating
after i do in my self
save a seat for me, satan
keep it warm
im going to be there
for eternal damnation
jump off, hard snap, death is my dedication


*SOMETIMES I WONDER IF THEY'LL LAUGH, WHEN I AM DEAD*