Reprehensible temporary madness
Provoking extruding suppressed energy
Having another one those crucial critical meltdowns
Due to conducive cataclysmic nightmares
Seeing disturbing distinctive visions of what she endured
The frightening frantic moments that lead to her life's finale

Hearing her scream my name
Feeling gunshots burn through her angelical beautiful flesh
Unable to rush and get there fast enough
But reaching with extended stretching arms
Touching and saving her not
Watching my most cherished love's bloody remains
Collapse helplessly
With a cold disposition setting in
She tearfully takes her last breath

Now I'm awaking
Panicking from harboring resentment behind the loss of her
For she was my first true queen

Breathing very heavy
Looking upon my watch
Struggling
Rushing to bathroom sink
Desperately splashing water hard against my face
Needing to somehow cool and calm down
Recorded time of last episode
5.....
4.....
3.....
2.....
1.....

It's happening again
Falling over hurting
Distorted facial fixtures
Erupting in frustrated painful fits
Clenched fist striking
Smashing weakening floors
Heart rate ascending rapidly
Eyesight turning fiery red
Concentrating and fighting my maimed melancholy
Loosing inner-self control like autonomic arousal
As mental activated angered aggression increases intensity
Boosting impaired physical determination
Manic emotions traveling along neural pathways
Replacing common sense
Spontaneously prompting improper motives
Shredding exoskeleton extremities

Finally the real monstrous me has made it's presence known once more
With rage being the destructible epic center of explosive impudent hostile behavior
Vengeance is my only desire
And I won't rest till delivered justice is sought
This is my characterized predatory narcissistic response to resent traumas and suffered past injuries

For my deceased love
The remnants of you will never die
Nor will this dominant masking disorder that lives within my psychotic psychological chambers

Now let these enhancing accumulating frequent deficiencies lead me to a disregarded chaotic profound affair

My raging saga continues............................