Many things
have happened to me that I
can explain... many people tell me
I don't know, but because I am
a little slow... don't me I don't know... and I can prove to show...
---------------------------------------------------
I've been
cheated, and I've cheated...

I've been hurted and I have done the hurt...

I've been lied too, and betrayed... and I've lied and did
the betraying....

I know what its like to be a fool... and make a fool...
I know what its like to cry... and I know what its like too make someone cry...

I have family issues at home... mom and dad used to abuse me
when I was younger... and now they gone over the edge... where they jump me emotionally and physically to where I feel the asthma kicking in...

I've been abused
to where my mom actually
tried killing me before... I've had experiences when my mom tried
to abandon me... and get rid of me....

I've had experiences when mom
and dad tell me I am a mistake... because I was there mistake....

I've thought
I knew where I belonged
but it hurt to find out... that thats not where I was all along....

I know
what it feels to be mistreated... and to be kindly be treated...

I've been told racism... and no offense but a few times out of anger... I've done the racism....

... I've been called beaner... wetback, spic, and asked wheres my green card....

I've been pulled over by cops.. and I've been pulled over by life....

and at times... I would go back... and see what I did and those crimes... the lines were so straight... but the actions were so fucked up... I couldn't believe they happened to me....

Hard to go back, when things were so fucked up and whack.... its like a big Godsmack because of the emotional times, fights and frictions I've done and been through... like some of the weed addictions... Ive done weed, I've done chronic, I've drank... but

my heart has also sank....

my life fades away more and more each day... because the next day, is more complexed then the next... because the text... is not for me... but for everyone else that surrounds me.... How do they do it?... I Don't know... but how do I do it?... I must be one hell of a fuck up...