So you say you want to turn out the lights
I find that hard to believe when you chose to fight
For life

As a child I have been there
When daddy thought it was okay to
Insert dick and tell me to be quiet
Shhhhs was all that was said
I didn’t know then I was already dead

As a child when daddy decided to kick
Mommy’s ass
As I watched this woman become an
Weak because of her past
I prayed her bruises would not long last

But I did this as a child
So not on my watch

As a child she tried to flee
Into hiding she thought she be free

But my stomach learned to turn from
Living off hot dogs and beans
For she was not equipped to generate
Financial means

So she returned to the fight of just being

But I did this as a child
So not on my watch

A woman I would now become
Keeping secrets was a road I begun

Oh and I learned the way to play the game
Placing blame to elevate my pain

Making myself pay for all the hate
His funeral now my anniversary date
As his death grew near I showed him his
Fate , Die motherfucker as the Devil closed the gate

So did I overcome this no baby, and I never will
I have tasted death,by the hands of others
My favorite friends cocaine and others

I became the addict I hated to see
Damn did your so call God owe me
As a woman I only hurt me

It did not erase the pain no it never will
An I will never be broken again against my will

So I will not see you turn out the lights
For in the darkness your soul still has rights

And you can choose not to see
But that which did not kill you
Will prove to be

The only thing that
Sustained you was your reason not to leave

The light may be dim the hurt will always be
The strength of a woman is not measured on how less
But the fact that she herself can pass the test

So I will not allow your light to go dim
I am your example of what fight can achieve
An answer to a question from the woman I see

Today may not be wonderful , but today I perceive
If I only hold a flash light . Its all the light I need

I am watching, you are not alone