Mother Am I? by dominicanpoet

Mother...what does this word mean to you...
............something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else.........
straight out the dictionary itself.....
To me......a mother is the woman who through the late nights....
Made sure the bed bugs aint bite....
And when you sick she'll lay in the bed with you...
Praying and hoping that you will get well soon....
A woman who will stay up late with you....
Because you had a nightmare and you didnt know what else to do...
When it's cold outside....she made sure you had clothes on you back....
And when you got out the shower there was clean towels on the rack....
The one who will put a whopping to your back side...
Because by her rules you did not abide...
But ten minutes later...she right there kissing you...while you apoligize....


Today i heard the most hurtful words anyone could say to me.....
She isn't yours!!! She's not your baby!!
She's only yours by law....
So when i gave her my all.....it wasn't accounted for at all?!?!?
When her REAL mom was strung out on drugs....Who was there....
To pick her up....didn't leave her with that blank stare.....
When no one wanted to have her late nights while she was sick cause they rather be clubbing...
Who was the one laying with her...her belly aching...so i started rubbing....
When her clothes were to tight...no one willing to buy her a thing....
Who was the one to spend their last penny....just to make sure she was clothed....
Funny the only thing you classify as a mother is one who births a child....
Who just sticks around for the hospital days....just alil while...
Abandoned her lil girl yet she is still a mother??!?!?!
When her child had pin worms...to the doctor she did not bother.....
Child developed a staph infection....and the only way she made it to the hospital..
Was because when her uncle visited he insisted that she go....
Legs swollen...Couldn't walk anymore....yet she didn't care...
Do you think that is fair.....
I dont hold one thing from this baby....She knows who her mom is...
But she is not obligated to this....
If she wants her she is aloud to go...
But for some reason she says no...
Maybe because she knows where she is taken care of...
Where she is shown real love....
So yes she is mine....and no one can change that....
And everything i've done for her No one can take back.....
Her First word wasn't mama nor daddy....
Funny as it sounds it was Jenni...
So those hurtful words you sayed to me today....
Just showed me what kind of soul you posess....
But i wont lie i will just confess....
the words you said to me irked me...
You killed me spiritually....