confused lost in my mind
caged like animal
my thoughts doing time
what i thought was real
turned out to be fake
i prayed so heard that sweat and blood took a trade
when i waked i layed there to take
my breaths cause it seems like thats all i got left
cause i know thats the truth
the hole it comes through
speaks loose and true
but my holes on the side of my head
hears things it doesn't want to listen to
words of false accusations
becomming known facts
venting through this pen
steady trying to hold back
but...my mind is in termoil
rotting away like shitted soil
wrap me up with aluminim foil
i don't want the crown
drain my veins of its royal
i just want my state of mentaliity back
before i relasp and have a truth withdrawl heart attack
im dunking like shaq in my mind sipping jacks
taking them to the head
hopping to end up dead
last words said
why fight to live when im going to end up dead
death bed made of puke
cause i throw up the evil
wedged in by needles
vommiting peoples
ate them like cheetos
crunchy like freetos
but not satisfying like pickle flavored dorito's
reto me into my cell
cause im going loony
drawn together but not perfectly
im half a toony
take the gun and shoot me
why take this pain
beating my head like a migrain
i rate my natural reaction to a solid ten
cause this shocking find has got me stabbing my self internally within
conflicts with ones self
trying to piece a puzzle
but the struggle makes me mumble
rock back in forth like a chair
im in dispair....air....needed to take care
of my body which appears....to need professional repairs
down on my knees
begging thee to send me angels with soft faces to replace these demons in my place of solitude and confinement
my sentece must be lifelong
cause this torture seems timeless
wish i had a click
so i can rewind this horror movie
and set the traps back into the mind field
this reil got me hooked
now im a gonner like a lost child
no smile, head hung low
pull out the X-files
chalk me up as another one vanished
langauge english or is it spanish
who knows....im too confused to give a damn.....

*I CAN'T SAY FUCK WHAT I'VE HEARD...CAUSE IT BROKE MY JAW*