*arose from Various Conversations*

He...Places...This Topical Cream...And Seran Wraps It..On His Left Side
And Every Time...I Neared Myself To
His Numbed Location...That Had Remnants Of Prior...
Tattooing...Markings of Unworthy Wanna Be Artists...

He Closed Himself...From Me...
As I Fought...For the Piercing Pleasure of Possible Pain
His Name Stenciled In Already...For the World
To See...As I Was Kept Hidden...Unwilling Twas He
to Billboard Me...

Even Though I Already Had a Sleeve...
No Sleeping these Feelings Please.
I Rather See This Needle of Love...
Tremors and Amazement at
The Continuous Cutting To Decorate this Blank Canvas
With He...His Smile...On My Cranium
his Fingerprints on Random Places on My skin
His Memory...A Colorful State of Permanence
With a Shade of Royal Blue...Since He Refused To See...How Important it was to...Get My Tattoo.

Tribal Markings on my Chest for I Kept Being A Warrior...No cream for Me..
I, As "A Woman Willing To Take The Pain"
As He Keeps Running Away...Avoidance...Looking For Ways To Calm It...

He Wishes For No...Inflammation of Internal Commotion
As I...Wish to Cut Through His..Blockaded Dermis
To My Burning Pain...Insane He Labeled Me..As
I Kept...Painting My No Longer Blank Canvas

He Refuses To...Go Natural...And Feel
Every Moment As It Should Be Felt...

A
C O W A R D

Going Through Numerous
Positions..Yoga Lookin fiend...To Put on this
Topical Cream...

so He...Suffers From...
the Accelerated Depolarization of Neurons...
Killing Brain Cells

Making Sure The Path of His Nerves
are Asleep...

Even Though...He Knows Every...Medication has Its Side Affects
Heartblock
Sinatrial Block if he has a Pacemaker
Hypotension
Bradycardia
Accelerated idioventricular rhythm

And It Is All A Matter of the Heart...if He Could Man The Hell Up
and Take It...As Such...He Did at the Start...But Never Wished To Return
While I Came For More Sessions...I Guess I Had
an Addiction To the Needle...

As He Feared the Beauty in its...Knife Like Sketch...
He Preferred Lidocaine.

Such Topical Drug...
Fear...The Main Cause...
of Prevention.

I, A Woman Took the Pain...Since it's all I knew...
While He...Looked for another Way...to Avoid It....Not Once
Was He Willing To Feel It...So He Lost It...

As I
LEFT
With a Portrait.

{{sometimes we are so afraid of pain we miss the experience...the only thing to fear is fear itself}}