(This is me goin through my emotional stage)

You see i have been in and out of love more than once
And it just aint fair
I did everything for you
Anything you wanted me too
Then for you to tell me that im another nigga problem just aint right
Remember i was the one that stayed up wit you when u cried at night
I was always there for you no matter what
But you wasnt there for me when i needed you the most
I went through everything by myself cause its what you wanted
When both of my lil cuzins died at the same time i wanted to crawl up and die
and all I really wanted was you to be by my side to tell me that everything would be alright
But all i got was im at my baby momma house i cant deal with this right now
Yo baby momma...hell i was supposed to be yo baby momma...i got the abortion what more could you have wanted i took life from myself to make sure that you didnt hate me now i go back and i think did he really love me or was it just the pussy i neva asked for that fascade but you put it up there anyway. I neva asked for the lies all i wanted was you. I loved you all i wanted was for you to love me back and you couldnt do that properly but i learned that you could never expect somebody to treat you like you treat them. And in the depths of my soul i want to hate you but my heart wont let me. Its like you got some kind of strange hold over me but i kno i deserve better. I gave you my heart and i gave you everything and the only thing you did was take whatever i gave you . All you did was tell me what i didnt do that she did and i took it cause i was like maybe one day he will change but you never did, and you never will. And i neva asked you for anything not even the money for the abortion but yet and still you tell me i aint shit because i aint Christen. I now kno that love is a gamble and sometimes you crap out and thats what this was. You will find out one day that you can only push a person away for so long until they up and move on by they self and im sorry but that day has come. And you dont have to worry about me cause whatever you say is full of lies i now kno that you never loved me but still everytime i think of you i smile....but now i am moving on because of you and its not fair to my heart. Thank you for making me a stronger person. I wsh you the best cause i now know that hating you doesnt make anything any better. I still love you but with time my heart will heal. And this was a real learning experience for me. I now kno that love just aint right for me rigth now.