You were there to give me advice when needed

When in times of sorrow you found your way to me so I could have someone to lean on and your shoulder open for my tears

You told me what I needed to hear when what I felt was good to me and it wasn’t good for me

You kept me company when I was in unwanted solitude

No you didn’t these things all the time
No one could
If you could you would have achieved perfection
In which no one has
So no one could

But I focused on not what was being done,
Yet I focus too much on what was not being done


Therefore I overlooked the things that you did for me
at the time these things seem to be micro
Now that you are no longer here are macro

How I wish I had realized this when you were here
Now I realized what I had
And wish it was still what I have
It’s too bad it took your absence for me to truly appreciate you
Now realizing the saying true
You don’t know what you have until it it’s gone

Showing me to be hard headed
Because I heard this time and time again
Yet I neglected to take heed to the warnings
Making it so only where experience was the only way for me catch wind to this reality

That I pushed away someone special
Not knowing how special they were until they were gone
With my lack of appreciation and neglect


Terrence T. Carter