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You said you loved me
staring into the brown of my eyes
claiming I made you fall
into my spirit,
entangling with my ambiance,
kissing the fresh scent of
pineapples warmed over -

that I made you upside down

and so I made silent vows to you,
twining pieces of string
into a hopeful ring
believing this humble token
was a promise you'd let me keep

Loving you in the ways of
sacrificing career dreams
if it would mean
you kissing me
with overflowing passion
and need.

I remember calling you
just to hear your mind
connect with mine
by predicting the first thing
that you would say

it always was, Baby

and its warmth would infuse me
with strength and the
knowledge that I was loved
making days blend
and fold into
2 divided by fun equalling one
I'd forever have in my life
to ease me through upcoming strife.

{ahhh, it felt nice}

but these memories were planted by my imagination, it seems,
just overactive dreams
that leave reminders in the intimate
fissures of my brain,
transmitting pain by mere mention
of your name.

I realize,
as your concession stands closed,
that the soft caress of your voice
now gets me moist...
from the orifice of my eyes as I cry tears
stuck in this make-believe world
where I was the girl dripping
excitement on your lips
and I

{cringe}

at the distance
separating us as
waves pull me under,
your silhouette blurring,
as I sink deeper into realization
that your lips aren't telling me stay

your waving goodbye
and your eyes are dry

The love I remember...
drifting falsely
in my memories of you