Tears having been falling from my eyes
In abundance
just like the leaves that have been falling from the trees
I love the smells of fall, from the wood burning stoves to the decaying leaves
I never meant to fall for him you see
so I guess the joke was on me
making myself physically ill over this emotional dilemma
And I'm sure he isn't as sick as me
Playing God of War sitting in front of that 27" TV
This is not how I perceived love to be
No one will be able to sever the ties that bind us
No one except for us two
I wanna hold on and let go at the same time i don't knwo what to do
We may appear to be happy to the average person on the outside looking in
But I want more,
a house and a family someday but Lord only knows what He has in store
We ain't getting no younger
and I really feel like he could be "the one"
Too bad he doesn't feel the same way
And I pray
that if we must part ways that he will be the one to end it
I don't even knwo if we coul;d be friends just yet
I'm geting myself suicidal over this shit because i feel like I have failed
But it takes two people to make a relationship work
And I know I can be a jerk
Give him an attitude and talk real rude
at the drop of a dime
Like a lifer doing time he is emotionally spent
If he has to he would rather troop the rest of his time in solitary confinement
We laugh less and fight more
And I'm sure
it woudl be easy just to give up and move on
on one hand I'm no quitter
but on the other i don't want to become bitter