Where were you when I needed you the most,
went through life fustrated; holding my hate close.
I made alot of mistakes; you weren't there to guide me through,
I learned things the hard way thats to you.
All I use to think about; how it would be with you,
last time I check to rise a child; It took two.
Been to jail; fought in fights; and even sold drugs,
directing my attention to the streets; to feel some sense of love.
Effected my future alot; the struggle messed up my head,
I always told myself; that I was going to be a better father
than he ever did.
I had a hard time focusing; your talk would of put me at ease,
teaching me about safe sex and the dangers of STDs.
Its to late for that; It strike me unsuspectedly,
the things I been through; I pray to God someday
someone would marry me.
I slowly realize I was started to live like you;
but Im to glad say I finished high school,
for years thinking this was ok; I was a DAMN fool.
I have no kids in my life; I was suppose to have one way back than,
the family been having babies at an early age; but I broke that trend.
Yeah you were here and there but wasn't there enough,
witnessing father and son relationship was very tough.
Now Im a grown ass man; for dedicated dads; I take a stand,
I made my life harder than ever; before I had a chance.