(disclaimer)
my pieces are a little lengthy.
they're written with the intention of being performed/recorded.
still i hope you enjoy...


BEFORE...

I wish I would have met you
Before.
Before the heartache
Before the tears
Before the drama
The busted windshield and
the fights in the clubs
Before circumstances
Stopped the advances of
True love
Before it started
When you thought it would be nice
To be in something committed
Before he did
Lied and said he didn't
Before you said forget it
And started treating them the way
They treated you
So now you won't call
Won't text
Won't smile
Won't laugh
Won't love
Because love only gets you
Abused
Mentally and physically
I wish I would have been there
Before
Before the name calling
And
The pushing
Before the weapons were drawn
That left you sitting in the emergency room
Telling the nurses
That it was an accident
Even though the details weren't accurate
Living the life
Parallel to a battered wife
Coming home
To a battlezone
Where there are no winners
And the walls to your heart
Aren't getting any thinner
But I imagine how it was before
Before he turned you into
Something you are not
When your kind words
Didn't have to be chased with disclaimers
When you didn't use
Sarcasm as a defense mechanism for
You disappointments
When you didn't believe you had to relocate
To find a soulmate
When someone could tell you were special
You were beautiful
And you would believe it
Not say that you don't see it
I would travel in time
Make the earth spin backwards
As each moment rewinds
To find
The precise moment
When he took your heart away
Freeze frame and delete
Everything that transpired after
I wouldn't leave one moment of pain
Hell, I wouldn't leave a trace
Not even the memory of his name.
It would be like never came into your life
I would replace the mediocrity
With reciprocity
Treat you like you deserve to be treated
You deserve to be happy
You deserve to be loved
to be thought of
To be held
To be given
Every thing you have already given to
Everyone else
Before you sacrificed yourself
Before you decided
You won't call or text
Won't smile
Won't laugh
Won't love
And I wish I go back to how it was
before
Because the first thing I would do is
Make you smile
And I would fill your nights with passion
And days with laughter
Because if I could do all of this before
I could only imagine
What you would be like
After